So I signed up for a retreat a few months ago........and now the weekend has finally come and I am having my doubts. But this is my personality...the less time I have to think about something the least likely I am to back out or out think myself.
And I have told JD how I felt. In October he went on the men's version of the retreat and I can honestly say it was quite beneficial for him. So last night after he got back form his Bible study I knew something was up. I could just see it in his face. He gave me this huge hug and told me I was going to have a great time and that he was excited for me.
I don't know...I guess I just don't want to disappoint him because I know he has done a lot of work towards it and that he wants me to have the same experience he had. But I guess I am just going through the same feelings I always experience. SO I am going ...and I am going to go with the flow (which apparently is hard for me to do)...and I am just not going to think about it anymore.
I did get a phone call last night from someone on the retreat team and I decided I am not a happy perky person because after I got off the phone I told my husband...." you know I am not coming back like that right?" I mean I am a pessimist...and although I do believe in balance... optimisim is not always my strong point. Of course my wonderful husband just laughed and hugged me and said " I love you anyways."